7032020 | MASALAH

Assalamualaikum. Hi.

Aku rasa terlalu lama aku tinggalkan blog ni sampaikan aku terlupa aku ada blog until one day my friend asked me why aku dah lama tak post. Well, nak kata tak ada masa, masa tu ada. Cuma kena cari. Nak cari masa untuk menulis tu pula susah. Manusia dengan alasan tak boleh terpisah kan? Haha.

Orang tanya, kenapa nampak happy je? Ceria, ketawa. Kenapa macam tak ada masalah? Tak ada masalah???? Manusia mana yang tak ada masalah. Kita manusia biasa, tak lari dari masalah and tak lari dari buat kesilapan. Balik pada pertanyaan tadi, aku tak ada masalah ke? Aku senyum. Aku jawab, setiap masalah kalau kita hadap in positive way, then the outcome could be positive too. Aku tak perfect. Kadang-kadang cara aku selesaikan masalah tu pun berakhirnya dengan masalah. See, kau nampak tak kita manusia biasa ni memang sentiasa berdepan dengan masalah. Satu je. Jangan lari dari masalah. Hadap. Lagi kau lari, lari berat beban yang kau kena pikul. Sampai satu tahap, kau rasa tak larat nak lari, kau stop. Kau give up dengan diri sendiri and tambah buruk kalau kau decide untuk take your own life. NO. Pokok pangkalnya, JANGAN LARI DARI MASALAH.

Hadap. Tenang. Positive. Cari jalan. Selesaikan sebaik mungkin.

Apa je yang datang kemudian hari, hadap dengan tenang and positif kan diri sepositif yang boleh. Sayang diri kau. Apa-apa jadi sekalipun, kalau kau sayang diri kau InsyaAllah segala kepayahan, masalah, pahit yang kau hadap, kau jeling sebelah mata je. Tambah pula kalau kita jenis yang suka fikir apa orang kata. Kau akan fikirkan orang lain sebelum kau. Whatever it is, put yourself first. Bukan aku suruh jadi selfish, TAK. Ada keadaan yang kau kena sayang diri kau dulu, especially in relationship. Kalau kau tak sayang and letak diri kau as priority, kau akan terperosok ke tempat paling bawah dalam relationship. You tend to hurt yourself and let your partner hurt you as much as they want. You might end yourself in abusive/toxic relationship. Mentally or maybe physically.

Minta simpang la semua tu jadi dalam hidup kita. Yang kita nak cuma bahagia kan? Happiness. Bukan senang nak dapat. Bukan susah juga untuk dapat. Cara? Aku tak boleh nak describe. Cara orang untuk cari kebahagiaan tu lain-lain. Tak sama. Ada orang makan aiskrim pun dah happy. Ada orang, bila ada yang belanja aiskrim pun tak bersyukur. Katanya, aiskrim je??? So, tak boleh. Cara tu ikut peribadi masing-masing. Macam aku cakap, sayang diri dulu. InsyaAllah, happiness is yours.  Satu lagi, don't expect too much. We might end up with frustration. Keep walking on your track and be good to everyone. Be kind. People will definitely love you. Smile. Whatever it takes, keep positive. You are the captain of your own ship. Take strength in knowing you can always change the course and route. Don't let anyone take the wheel. You take it and sail it to find your own happiness.

p/s: It's 11.42pm now. Aku ngantuk gila dah. Mungkin faktor usia. Pukul 11 ni kira paling lambat dah. Walhal dulu 11 malam ni umpama siang bagi aku. Goodnight.

CHANGE IS A PROCESS

Hi,

Today is the last day of my CNY holiday. Not too late for me to wish HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR to those who celebrating it. Hmm can I have a week of day off just like school kids? Bcs employee also need rest. Tsk. My life totally altered after I finished my degree. I am no longer excited of going out to mall if I don’t have anything to do or to buy. Not as before where I get myself all excited when it comes to holiday which I can go out and lepak with friends. But not now dude, I am now raise the value of HOME. I rather staying at home than going out and do nothing. No no. I wasn’t like this before. See, told you I totally changed rn. Haha. Except for going out and hunting for food, that one I cannot control. I will straightaway get ready and poof lets going out jalan jalan cari makan lol. Ya that’s me. Love food more than anything else. Gosh.

Anyway dear blog, I miss you and I hope you miss me too hmm. Despite the fact that you are not actually alive, but I'm certain you have some concealed emotions also aight, or actually not? It's interesting how I used to compose or write something daily and rants about everything without leave a page blank like a plain A4 sheets on desk, not notwithstanding for a day. Now I don’t really give a damn about it and abandoning it relinquished for some time. Well this is essentially bcs people easily get bored or tired with the same commonplace routine and they simply have that substantial heavy feeling to proceed onward. But I know one day, they'll begin to miss the same old routine again relocate their own way back to it. Am I right? Yea right. But people changed.

Yes they do changed. Even the sky can turn into dark at night, what’s more the normal human being. Surely and certain that there are stuffs running and playing on our mind and we struggling to let it out from the labyrinth of thoughts. Change? Yes, change to be better is what I really look for. I want to be better me, better in everything. Basically to look perfect to others. No. We can’t. We can’t run from the fact that everyone isn’t perfect though some individual feels like they’re one. Why sometimes we tend to feel like we are the perfect one? Bcs we never try to be understanding and be empathy to others. Try to deal with other flaws and imperfection bcs we aren’t that perfect as well.

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This reminds me to someone. He once digs my own feelings whilst I wasn’t so sure about mine. From hated this guy in the first place till he being the one that who got away, I realized he did nothing for me to change my own feelings to like and love him. That feelings come out of the blue and idk when it starts to the point I pondered how these things happened. Perplexed. Yas. That’s how it works, changing happened without we ever realized. Yet we’re over now, I learn something from it. Time. Change is a process, process takes time. Time heals remember? Accepting and then embracing change is a process not an event.

FULL AND FREE REIN

I am giving my passion a full and free rein. Possibly we experience our lives as indicated by some terrific concealed default thoughts; I am not maneuvering anybody to dig into a profound philosophical talk. I am no good either. We have a ton of things to be grateful for. Everything we possess, everything we have and are. We have to. Don’t be ungrateful one. It is alright to commit errors, to estrange or contemptuous people and to make mistakes. Trust me, if you cared less, less problem you could’ve shouldered and life would be easier. As long as you can think what the most ideal reason underneath each result is, then joy will be available to you. Take two streets and see both perspectives. Good or bad, you decide. This is me, letting my instinct lead the pack.

NEW YEAR OLD ME

It's astounding how time goes by so quickly without you seeing as it changes you and the people around you. It's astonishing how it's the start of new year and beginning everything off with a fresh start would be the main best thing to do. To appreciate all the great things that have happened in the past year, aimlessly delete and simply gain from the terrible ones. It's much all the more astonishing to realize that there is no such thing as the best year ever in light of the fact that each and every year that you experience, you encounter it in an unexpected way. 2015 had taught me a lot.

I've inevitably learnt and encountered the quote that I've been droning to myself throughout the years, great things will go to the individuals who hold up. All things considered, it's unquestionably genuine. Certain things will take abundant time to happen, exactly how it sets aside time for a child to figure out how to walk and talk. All the persistence that one experiences, it will be all justified and worth, despite all the trouble at last. I've likewise learnt that specific friends come and go like tides. This is likely a standout amongst the most adage expressions ever, but it is somehow true.

I tend to question myself on how can this circle of fellowship even work. Is it taking into account who you required generally then. Or is it just a game of spin-the-wheel. It's not really a big of a deal anyway, it is something that you get used to before long. I am a driftwood, all things considered. You must be kind and nice to everybody. Regardless of how selfish/bad one might be, just be kind. Generosity overrules all. Be that as it may, don't simply be caring before them and be the inverse behind. It depicts one's truthfulness. So be sincere and honest to everyone, as God is watching you each second of your life.

SANGUINE TO THE NEW WORLD

Hi,

Happy Wednesday. I don't know why does it feels like Friday today. What's off with me. Wake up wake up! It is just Wednesday weh. Esok baru Khamis. Why I feel like time flies so moderate and slow nowadays. A week ago I got my second pay. Yayyy I am such a happy kid in light of the fact that this month ada reward/bonus for all the staffs. Not much but alhamdulillah.

It is not my first time working but it is my first employment after my graduation day and completed my studies. At least I can give some of my pay to my parents and siblings. My parents declined to accept because they want me to put aside for PTPTN installment. (my sisters, they even request more hahahahhaa). Talking about PTPTN, I am not paying for that yet. Sigh.. Don't bother, pandai pinjam pandai bayar. Time guna tak ingat dunia. Lol.

Without a doubt yea, cash isn't all that matters and can't purchase bliss and happiness yet everything needs cash these days. We can't keep running from it. Plus, semua benda pun nak naik rn. I am not sighing to it but as a freshie who just finished studies, it is quite challenging where as we need to face the new world out there and go through it. It is not easy man but we have to. Have faith and everything will be fine. InsyaAllah. We cannot predict what happen in future but as now we need to plan and be prepared. Or else, just go with the flow.

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New semester has started. Fresh start. This is my first week. Second day of lectures. I already attended 3 classes so far. Quite boring yet I still feel excited. Bit boring because not so much things that we did. Just a simple briefing about how the class gonna work for the entire semester. And what the most exciting is, this semester gonna be my last which means I will graduate soon, InsyaAllah. After completing this semester, I will straight away go for my internship. Hell yeah, I can't wait to finish my studies and rock on my graduation day. But one thing is, surely I'm gonna miss my studies life and Sarawak. Yeah, Sarawak. A place that taught me how to survive and be independent. Three years in Sarawak, I think it's enough for me to show that I can challenge myself for being distant with my family especially. My dream is wanna travel all around the world and I hope Allah will grant it and make it easier for me to achieve it someday.

"To be a champion, I think you have to see the big picture. It's not about winning and losing; it's about every day hard work and about thriving on a challenge. It's about embracing the pain that you'll experience at the end of a race and not being afraid. I think people think too hard and get afraid of a certain challenge."